Alan Clark was not 'wonderful'. He was sleazy and cruel
The diarist and Tory minister made his wife wretchedly
miserable
Dominic Lawson
@indyvoices
Tuesday 15 September 2009 00:00
Oh dear, not Alan Clark again. Ten years after the death of
the so-called "Samuel Pepys of the 20th century" out comes the
official biography. On the BBC Today programme yesterday the book's author, Ion
Trewin, described how "wonderful" Clark was. This is the popular
view, reinforced by the way in which that marvellous actor John Hurt portrayed
Clark's own account of himself to a mass audience, in the BBC dramatisation of
his diaries.
Alan Clark was not wonderful. He was sleazy, vindictive,
greedy, callous and cruel. He was also a thorough-going admirer of Adolf
Hitler, although his sycophants persisted in thinking that his expressions of reverence
for the Fuhrer were not meant seriously. They absolutely were.
When Alan Clark died, in September 1999, the then Prime
Minister, Tony Blair, led the tributes, saying: "We will all miss
him". One MP had the courage to offer an honest view of his late
colleague: David Heathcoat-Amory – who had the genuine article's ability to see
through Clark's phoney imitation of the upper-class Englishman. Heathcoat-Amory
told the BBC that "he wasn't a particularly nice man. He could be very
cruel with colleagues. One incident that sticks in the mind was when we were
having a whip-round for a colleague and he [a multi-millionaire] refused to
chip in ... I also think he was very conscious of his own image and status, and
his own reputation as a diarist."
That rang true. When the London Evening Standard began
publishing some spoof Alan Clark diaries, he sued them for a considerable sum
of money, although it must have been clear to any reader that these were
nothing more than a form of humorous homage. Yet Clark, for all the witty
demolitions of his colleagues in his diaries, took himself very seriously
indeed – it was a source of great bitterness to him that neither Margaret
Thatcher nor John Major could take at all seriously his insistence that he
should be Foreign Secretary.
He made it to Minister of State for Trade, however, in which
role he did something truly wicked. At the time, this country had an embargo
against selling weaponry to Saddam Hussein. Clark did not agree with this
policy, and so gave the nod and a wink to a company called Matrix Churchill to
sell machine tools to Saddam, which he knew were for military use. This was
against the law, so when HM Customs discovered the shipments, the Matrix
Churchill executives were arrested. They protested that the then Trade Minister
Clark had given them the all-clear; but when he was visited by the police, he
lied and said that he had done no such thing.
So the executives went on trial – and would have received
substantial prison sentences, were it not for the fact that the judge
overturned so-called ministerial public interest immunity certificates, which
had kept from the court documents revealing Clark's involvement. Clark, of
course, had signed those certificates, and must have thought that this would
end any chance of his lies being uncovered.
Immediately, the Matrix executives' lawyers put to Clark in
the witness stand the incompatibility between his remarks to the police, and
what was now being revealed. Clark drawled, "it's our old friend
economical... with the actualité": in other words, he admitted that there
had been a conspiracy between him and the Matrix Churchill executives to
disguise the nature of the exports to Saddam. The trial collapsed – and Clark
became an instant hero. It was felt that he had told the truth in the dock, and
thus saved the defendants from unjust incarceration. The truth was that Clark
had been content to see the men locked up on the basis of his perjurious
evidence – for which he should have been prosecuted – and only came clean when
the forced disclosure of documents he had connived in suppressing had put him
on the spot.
It turned out that Clark had earlier explained his motives
for clearing the exports to Saddam: "The interests of the West were well
served by Iran and Iraq fighting each other, the longer the better." He
was indeed a notable historian of wars, one of his most acclaimed works being
Barbarossa, an account of the Eastern Front in the Second World War. He was
intent on proving Hitler's talent as a military leader, but over the years it
became clear that there was more to it than mere technical admiration of Hitler
the war strategist. In 1981 his diary records: "I told Frank Johnson that
I was a Nazi; I really believed it to be the ideal system, and that it was a
disaster for the Anglo-Saxon races and for the world that it was
extinguished."
Johnson, who was then on the staff of The Times, gulps and
tells Clark that he can't really mean it. Clark really did mean it. But even
when he complains in his diary that Johnson "takes refuge in the
convention that Alan-doesn't-really-mean-it", his readers continue to
believe that this is all an uproarious joke. Yet, and this is to his credit as
a diarist, he does not attempt to mislead his readers about his true opinions:
at one point he records his thoughts of defecting to the National Front, and
when two NF emissaries come to visit him he writes, "How good they were
and how brave [those] who keep alive the tribal essence."
All this filth has been submerged by the tidal wave of
obsession with Clark's sexual exploits. On that score Trewin's biography will
not disappoint. We knew that the 30-year-old Clark married the 16-year-old Jane
Beuttler in 1958. Yet Trewin has unearthed the following diary entry, written
when Clark's wife-to-be was just 14: "This is very exciting. She [Jane] is
the perfect victim, but whether or not it will be possible to succeed I can't
tell at present."
He did succeed in the endeavour of making this child a
"perfect victim": in the course of their marriage he made her
wretchedly miserable with his continuous betrayals. Sickest of all, perhaps,
was the way in which on his death-bed he made this much younger woman promise
him that she would never remarry. Naturally his "perfect victim"
consented.
Again, the reading public seems to find Clark's frenzied
extra-marital rutting merely amusing: or perhaps it is just that they
appreciate his lack of hypocrisy in admitting all to his diary. They should
consider what it was like to be in receipt of his unwanted attentions. Some
years ago the (married) journalist Minette Marrin recorded her own experience
of it. They had both been invited to a "political" dinner at a
private house. He instantly pressed himself on her in a most unsubtle way,
demanding that she leave their hosts, join him for a private dinner and then...
Marrin recalled: "He thought 'no' was a form of
flirting ... When at last he came to believe that I was impervious to his
charms and would not rush off with him into the night, he turned to me with a
particularly vicious look. And this is what this self-styled gentleman, this
intellectual, this flower of our civilisation, then said: "Well, fuck you
then. Fuck off. I'm not talking to you any more."
I think it would be better if we heard no more about the
"wonderful" Alan Clark.
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Alan Clark
Alan Clark, who has died aged 71, was an irrepressible free
spirit on the Conservative benches with a habit for outspokenness that ensured
he never gained high office.
Alan Clark at the 1994 Conservative Party Conference in
Bournemouth Photo: Brian Smith
12:23PM BST 08 Sep 1999
Clark was renowned not only for frequent public rows, but
also for the candid and outrageous content of his very readable diaries. He
said things of a kind many readers kept to themselves.
The Diaries gave a surprisingly open account of his own
vanity, hopes, lusts, political ambitions and amused contempt for his fellow
politicians and constituents. He exulted in driving fast cars and testing his
physical fitness and courage (by exploits such as climbing ruinous walls).
He also revealed an anxiety about becoming unattractive to
women in old age and a fear of sickness ("I am now convinced I have got
cancer of the jaw," he wrote erroneously in 1987, after looking in the
shaving mirror.) His jaundiced attitude and cynical laughter were reminiscent
of Philip Larkin.
Clark admired animals and hated cruelty to them, strongly
opposing battery chicken rearing and fur trapping. An emotional passage in his
Diaries describes his ill-managed shooting of a heron that was eating his fish:
"I was sobbing as I went back up the steps: `Sodding fish, why should I
kill that beautiful creature just for the sodding fish?' "
There were endless surprises in Clark's character. He was a
country landowner but was repelled by hunting, a loving husband yet a flagrant
womaniser, an admirer of the martial qualities of the SS but a stout defender
of Britain's capacity to defend her liberties.
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Clark worried about the drain on his wealth of the upkeep of
Saltwood Castle in Kent (from which the knights had set out to murder Thomas
Becket), a 27,000-acre estate at Eriboll in Sutherland, a chalet in Zermatt (he
was a daring skier) a house in north Devon and rooms in Albany (to him a place
of "cold and miserable squalor").
Dashing and languid, he combined sensibility and arrogance,
and made friends in high places - and enemies. His enthusiastic knowledge of
military history and strategy well qualified him as a defence minister. But his
honesty, sense of humour and contempt for stupidity disqualified him from
higher office.
Much of Clark's character was to be explained by his
similarity to his father, the art historian Kenneth Clark. To him he owed his
money, sharp intellect and breeding. In his Diaries he admitted a constant
inability to communicate with his father, but in the end, as Kenneth Clark lay
dying, there was a moving declaration: " `Papa, I think you're going to
die very soon. I've come back to tell you how much I love you, and to thank you
for all you did for me, and to say goodbye.' He mumbled, but his breathing
calmed right down. Quite remarkable and fulfilling."
Alan Kenneth McKenzie Clark was born on April 13 1928. The
family's roots were bourgeois - Clark's grandfather made his fortune from
cotton. Saltwood, the boyhood home of the Daily Telegraph journalist W F
Deedes, was bought "for a song" in 1953.
Alan spent his childhood miserably "behind the green
baize door" from his father. He hated Eton, receiving "an early
introduction to human cruelty, treachery and extreme physical hardship".
He and his House Tutor, L H Jacques formed an instant antipathy, and he was
caned for bursting a paper bag in Chapel and writing "not dusty" on
some untouched furniture. "These were not the worst things I did," he
confessed later.
During 185 days' National Service in the Household Cavalry,
Clark acquired a third share in his first Jaguar and a taste for strong
language. In 1948 he went up to Christ Church, Oxford, to read History,
enjoying lectures by Robert Blake and Hugh Trevor-Roper.
He spent the summer of 1950 in America, staying with the
Astors - which he liked - before working as a bellhop; on his travels he
developed a life-long distaste for America.
After taking his degree, he combined dinners at the Inner
Temple with a colourful career as a "runner" for a used-car dealer in
Warren Street. When unemployed he would "nip round to Annabel's where the
barman would cash a cheque for pounds 50". He was called to the Bar in 1955,
but never practised. Instead, the super-fit Clark became involved with the
Festival Ballet, and in 1957 passed himself off as a wrestler to gain
experience of Russia.
In July 1958, now 30, he caused a stir by marrying
16-year-old Jane Beuttler, whom he had courted for two years, collecting her
from convent school in a Cadillac. His bride declared: "I am not even
nervous. I intend to have a lot of fun in my married life." So did her
husband. A former girlfriend turned up on the honeymoon in Positano.
In 1961 Clark published his first book of military history,
The Donkeys, A History of the BEF in 1915. It heaped obloquy on British
generals - particularly Haig - for their readiness to sacrifice lives to an
unimaginative strategy. It provided much material for Joan Littlewood's musical
Oh! What a Lovely War.
Clark enhanced his reputation as a military historian with
The Fall of Crete. In 1965 he published Barbarossa: The Russo-German Conflict
1941-45 and in 1973 Aces High: The war in the air over the Western Front.
But he was never far from controversy. In 1984, in The Daily
Telegraph, he contrasted the "inefficiency" of Eisenhower's army in
Normandy with the "physical splendour" of the SS infantry who
resisted it. In 1993 he outraged many by claiming that Churchill lost the
Empire through not making peace with Hitler in 1941.
In 1971 his father moved out of Saltwood, to lessen death
duties, and Clark moved in. He loved the castle with its Norman buildings
partly rebuilt by Lutyens, its vast vaulted library, the works of art, the
grounds thronged with wildlife. There was space to tinker with his three
Jaguars, Silver Ghost and Porsche. Saltwood was a refuge for the Clarks and
their Rottweilers.
But money was always a nagging consideration. At first,
Clark had no access to the family trust, and mortgaged Saltwood to Hoare's. He
opened the castle to the public, but closed it again because of thefts and
vandalism. After Lord Clark's death, the family sold a Turner for pounds 7.4
million to meet death duties.
Clark never thought himself rich enough, lamenting in 1987
that, despite having pounds 700,000 in the Abbey National, "I'm not rich
enough to have servants, we have to do everything ourselves and we just haven't
got the time." He worked out how much the windows cost to clean and rued
the price of claret for dinner parties at pounds 100 for a decent bottle.
Politically, Clark yearned to be in the Cabinet. But, he
judged, "I am not a hungry fighter, being too full of my Baldwinesque
leisure and hobbies." In the late 1960s, armed with pounds 30,000 in
royalties from Barbarossa and convinced that Labour was ruining the country, he
sought a seat, despite his father's view of politics as "degrading".
He spurned Swindon in 1969, considering it unwinnable.
Edward Heath then reputedly barred him from the candidates' list as a
reactionary. It was 1972 before Clark was chosen to fight Plymouth, Sutton.
Elected in February 1974, he held the seat for 18 years, developing little
affection for the constituency or most of the worthies he had to humour.
Singled out by Whips as "the most dangerous man in the
Commons", Clark was an early supporter of Mrs Thatcher, not just because
he thought her the most sexually attractive woman in politics: "Eyes,
wrists . . ankles!" He took a robust line on race, law and order and
Europe, campaigning for a "No" vote in the 1975 referendum.
He always took his own line. He called protests at the
treatment of Soviet dissidents as "preposterous and desperately
dangerous". He voted against reforms to the Anglican liturgy, and spoke
strongly against abortion.
When Mrs Thatcher took office in 1979, he appealed to her
not to give in to "faint hearts" on Europe and to resist Treasury
pressure for defence cuts. He was blunt in public with her ministers. When the
De Lorean car plant in Belfast closed with the loss of millions of taxpayers'
money, Clark blamed the Labour government but told the Northern Ireland
Secretary Humphrey Atkins: "Do you realise that you are the laughing stock
not only of the international motor industry but as far as I know of the
criminal fraternity as well?"
When Rex Hunt, Governor of the Falklands, surrendered to
Argentine forces in 1982, he tabled questions alleging "collusion"
between the Foreign Office and the junta. He was one of several Tories to
threaten rebellion unless Britain secured a "dual key" for American
cruise missiles at RAF bases.
Convinced he had no prospect of office, he launched an
unsuccessful bid for the ownership of The Spectator. But after the 1983
election, Mrs Thatcher, admiring his stand on the Falklands and his rakish
demeanour, took a risk and made him junior employment minister.
Already 55, he was not cut out for Whitehall and by the end
of his first day was convinced that his private secretary Jenny Easterbrook,
"her sexuality tightly controlled", thought him "an uncouth
chauvinist lout" likely to last weeks rather than months.
Though Clark was not a heavy drinker, in a celebrated
incident he made the mistake of accepting an invitation to a wine tasting
before making his first important ministerial speech. He read in a mocking tone
a passage on equal rights for women. After Clare Short accused him of being
"incapable", he gabbled the rest. In his own words, he was brought
down by "odious over-confidence" and three particularly fine wines.
Clark sought the role of court jester, as when on a prime
ministerial flight he insisted on treating the black-tied Sir Geoffrey Howe as
head waiter. He explained: "Like many who have had an unhappy childhood, I
am frightened of being laughed at. Perhaps that is why I like making people
laugh with me."
In 1985 Clark - motto "only servants apologise" -
outraged the Foreign Office by describing sub-Saharan Africa as
"Bongo-Bongo Land"; the remark was made in private, but leaked.
An even more explosive episode in April 1984 required Mrs
Thatcher's intervention to keep him in the Government. Clark - an anti-American
protectionist representing a naval constituency - attacked on the BBC's
Question Time the decision to buy an American missile for the Royal Navy
instead of the British-developed Sea Eagle. The Defence Secretary, Michael
Heseltine, wanted him sacked for this, but Lobby correspondents were rapidly
informed that the Lady stood by him.
That October, Clark had what he took as a providential
escape from death. He and his wife decided on a whim to leave the party
conference in Brighton a day early. That night the IRA bombed the Grand Hotel.
Clark noted apocalyptically: "What a coup for the Paddys. The whole thing
has a smell of the Tet Offensive."
His time at employment had its high spots. One was his
piloting of a trade union Bill through the Commons with Labour pitting against
him John Smith, Gordon Brown and Tony Blair; he emerged with honours more than
even.
In January 1986 Clark, who had come within a whisker of
resigning through boredom, rejected a sideways move to transport. His pretext
was that owning land close to the likely Channel Tunnel portal raised a
conflict of interest. Within days he got a better offer; after the resignations
of Michael Heseltine and Leon Brittan over Westland, Mrs Thatcher made him
Minister of State for Trade. Douglas Hurd advised the Prime Minister not to
appoint Clark because of "Bongo-Bongo Land". (His own
characterisation of Hurd was: "Might as well have a corncob up his
arse.") President Bongo of the Ivory Coast jokingly sent Clark a poster
reading: "Gagnez avec Bongo!" which he displayed at his 1987 adoption
meeting.
The 1987 campaign gave Clark new scope to break ranks. With
the government committed to the tunnel, he attacked the project, enraging
Michael Howard, who as MP for Folkestone faced strong local objections to it.
The furore dashed Clark's hopes of promotion to the Cabinet. Mrs Thatcher moved
him sideways to become Defence Procurement Minister; he wrote: "For the
first time I really like my job."
He devoted his energies to undermining Tom King, his former
boss at employment whom he described as "an awful person to work with -
indecisive, blustering, bullying, stupid and cunningly cautious even when he
didn't need to be", yet came to see as a potential prime minister.
He gained Mrs Thatcher's support for an unofficial defence
review, recommending a world-wide capability with drastic cuts in the the Rhine
Army, saving pounds 2 billion a year. The document caused a sensation when
leaked in May 1990, but was stifled by the MoD with its less radical post-Cold
War review, Options for Change.
King berated Clark for "passing notes to the PM down
the chimney"; Clark ridiculed Options, saying: "There shouldn't be
any f**ing options. It should be: `It's like this. Now get on with it.' "
Clark was an outspoken supporter of Mrs Thatcher when Sir
Anthony Meyer made his "stalking horse" challenge in November 1989.
But he saw the party slipping away from her, and when Sir Geoffrey Howe
dramatically resigned and Heseltine challenged for the leadership he despaired
for her. He came to see first King and then John Major as the only candidate
able to stop Heseltine.
On November 21 1990, at the height of the crisis, he barged
in to see Mrs Thatcher, commended her decision to fight on into a second ballot
as "heroic", but warned that she would lose. After her resignation,
Clark was keen to write her official biography, but she preferred first to
publish her own memoirs.
Clark had expected to "go out" with Mrs Thatcher,
but Mr Major reappointed him with a Privy Counsellorship. The Gulf war was
imminent, and Clark had recently visited the Gulf to reassure friendly Arab
states; but when Operation Desert Storm was launched to recapture Kuwait,
officials kept him muzzled.
Hoping for a peerage, Clark decided not to stand for the
Commons again. By now, he was embroiled in the Supergun and Matrix-Churchill
affairs, concerning covert British arms sales to Iraq before the Gulf war.
Clark would have liked to hail the order for gigantic gun barrels as a triumph
for British exports but the row erupted before he could make this public.
Matrix-Churchill caused Clark much greater difficulties. He
had arrived at the DTI with Iran and Iraq at war and Britain committed not to
sell arms to either side, yet firms were quietly encouraged to supply Saddam
Hussein through third countries to prevent Ayatollah Khomeini scoring a victory
by destabilising the Middle East. Clark regarded the guidelines on sales to the
warring countries as "tiresome and obtrusive". In January 1988 he met
executives of the Matrix-Churchill machine tool company who were frustrated by
delays in getting licences for sensitive exports. Clark suggested specifications
that implied the machinery "would not be seen as suitable for military
purposes". When this was leaked in December 1990, the Cabinet Secretary,
Sir Robin Butler, had Clark hauled in to explain himself to the Prime Minister.
Despite Sir Robin's realisation that three Matrix-Churchill
executives (facing trial for making false claims to evade the arms embargo)
would argue that Clark encouraged them, the prosecution went ahead in November
1992. Clark had denied on oath to Customs officers that he advised the
businessmen how to circumvent the embargo, and repeated this in court. But when
the trial judge admitted in evidence documents proving the opposite, Clark
conceded he had been "economical with the actualite". The trial
collapsed, greatly embarrassing the government.
Yet within months, Clark tried to revive his Parliamentary
career, applying for the Newbury nomination as a Eurosceptic Major supporter.
He was blackballed by Sir Norman Fowler, the party chairman. There was nervousness
about the impending publication of his Diaries, for which Weidenfeld had bid
pounds 150,000.
On publication, colleagues were devastated to find that
Clark regarded them - after his publisher had toned down the language - as
"spastics" or "creeps". Kenneth Clarke was dismissed as a
"pudgy puffball", Heseltine as "jerky, wild-eyed, zombie"
and a "charlatan" and Sir Peter Morrison, Mrs Thatcher's hapless PPS,
as "sozzled".
Clark did not help his chances of a comeback by revealing
that MI5 had bugged his telephone, suspecting him of contacts with the National
Front.
In his Diaries, Clark discussed frankly his sexual
experiences before and outside marriage. He recalled the halcyon summer of 1955
when he was "running" three girls within half a mile, one of whom - a
nurse named Marye - gave him "the ultimate sexual experience" while
her matron banged on the door.
He fantasised about his female civil servants and girls on
the Folkestone train, confessed himself "in love" with his 1983
Labour opponent and hinted at a spectacular range of sexual escapades. He
observed: "I only can properly enjoy carol services if I am having an
illicit affair with someone in the congregation". Yet he confided that his
wife was his personal rock. "I could not, never would wound her, the best
human being in the entire world," he wrote.
The spirited Jane Clark told an interviewer: "Women,
that's what we row about. All the time - incredible rows." She added
without a trace of the doormat: "I do feel hurt. But fidelity, I think, is
a higher priority for some than for others. I think it's important that people
should be faithful, but then I have only ever known Alan."
Clark's most scandalous revelation concerned a
"coven" of three women, Valerie, Alison and Josephine; he disclosed the
temptation, at least, to bed all three at the Ritz after dinner at Brooks's the
day he was made a Minister in 1983. What he omitted was that Valerie was the
wife of a judge who had emigrated to South Africa, and the two girls her
daughters. In 1994 she went public in the News of the World, stating that her
affair with Clark lasted 14 years, even though she knew well before the end
that he had slept with her daughters.
The judge, his wife and Josephine flew to London to confront
Clark, hiring the publicist Max Clifford on Lady (Benvenida) Buck's
recommendation. Clark eventually conceded: "I deserve horsewhipping."
Meanwhile he had been obliged to appear before the Scott
inquiry in December 1993 to explain his part in the Matrix-Churchill affair.
Lord Howe, in his evidence, said of Clark: "He is a walking illustration
of the word `reckless'. He couldn't see an apple cart without wanting to
overturn it." Sir Richard Scott censured Clark for signing
"inaccurate and misleading" statements.
By the mid-1990s Clark claimed to have mellowed. In 1994 he
signed a contract for a second volume of diaries, but these proved harder to
edit, and did not appear.
In 1995, even to his own surprise, he decided to try
Parliament once more, securing the candidature at Kensington and Chelsea only
after the deselection of Sir Nicholas Scott. In May 1997 he returned to the
Commons, aged 69.
In a party halved by the Labour landslide, he stood out:
abstaining in the ballot that elected William Hague to the leadership, scorning
the Eurofighter as less use than a cheaper British aircraft would have been,
and enraging the Whips by advocating the shooting of 600 IRA men to end the
troubles once and for all.
In 1998 Clark sued the Evening Standard over spoofs of his
diaries. Clark claimed readers would think he had written them. He won his
action, but during cross-examination, every aspect of his colourful private
life was exposed.
Clark was constantly aware of mortality. "A hesitation
in the tail rotor and the frail little machine would have crashed," he
wrote in 1990 after a helicopter flight. "I draw strength from reflections
such as this. Because if God wants to plunge in the knife, then He can do so -
at any time."
Recently Clark was received into the Roman Catholic Church.
He is survived by his wife and their two sons.
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| Alan and Jane were married in London on July 31, 1958. Jane was 16, Alan 30 |
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The postcard showing Alan and Pamela, circled, dancing in
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A hell of a life: Alan Clark's secret last love
By ION TREWIN
UPDATED: 00:27 BST, 6 September 2009
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A hell of a life: Alan Clark's secret last love
By ION TREWIN
UPDATED: 00:27 BST, 6 September 2009
The first great love and the last infatuation of the late
Tory diarist and philanderer Alan Clark are revealed exclusively by The Mail on
Sunday for the first time today.
The sensational revelations include the startling fact that
his first love had an abortion, and record his reaction when he found out she
was pregnant: ‘We’d have to keep it if it was a baby boy.’
Mr Clark’s secretary Alison Young is identified as the
mysterious ‘X’ in his rakish diaries – the woman he was so infatuated with that
he almost left his wife.
Writer Ion Trewin spent five years unearthing details of the
relationships for a new biography.
When Mr Clark’s wife of 41 years, Jane, read a draft of the
book she remarked that she ‘hadn’t known the half of it’.
Mr Trewin was given unfettered access to a ‘treasure trove’
of personal papers at Saltwood,the politician’s castle in Kent.
In a locked ministerial Red Box, he found a note to Jane
saying: ‘Darling, please don’t rootle here. There are papers that might upset
you even tho referring to matters now long past.’
Inside were letters from Ms Young, the MP’s secretary from
the late Eighties until the 1992 General Election.
And in another box were letters charting a
two-and-a-half-year relationship from 40 years earlier.
They came from Pamela Hart, a beautiful 18-year-old dancer
with the London Festival Ballet with whom Mr Clark was similarly infatuated –
and also wanted to marry.
After Alan Clark's death in 1999, at the age of 71, his
Parliamentary papers were sent to Saltwood, his castle in Kent.
Jane, the wife he had married in 1958 when she was just 16,
gradually began sorting through them.
When I started work, at her suggestion, as Alan's
biographer, she showed me three ministerial Red Boxes, each with the rubbed
gold letters 'Minister for Trade, Department of Trade and Industry'.
Jane had discovered them hidden among cardboard boxes from
Westminster, and was immediately curious. Two opened at her touch and proved to
be packed with House of Commons notepaper. The third was locked.
In a desk drawer she found a key ring with the right-size
key. She inserted it in the lock and the key turned. Easing open the lid, she
found a pile of letters, many in their original envelopes. On top of them, in
her husband's unmistakable hand and with a typically quirky signature and
drawing of a tortoise, was a note on Commons embossed paper:
Jane Darling, please don't rootle here. There are papers
that might upset you even tho referring to matters now long past.
The writer of most of the letters was a woman Jane knew:
Alison Young, who had been Alan's secretary from the late Eighties until the
1992 General Election, when Alan made one of the biggest mistakes of his career
by resigning from the Commons.
Jane had assumed there had been letters between them and had
wondered where they might be. Now they had turned up, the envelopes addressed
to Alan at the exclusive Brooks's Club in St James's or the House of Commons.
Nor were they unique. Elsewhere I found a box of letters
from the first love of his life, a dancer to whom he had been close in the
early Fifties.
I also discovered the aptness of the writer Simon Hoggart's
description of Alan: 'a philanderer obsessed with his wife'.
When Jane read a first draft of my biography she commented
that, although married to her husband for 41 years, she 'hadn't known the half
of it'.
During the final four years of Alan's time as MP for
Plymouth Sutton, he became infatuated with his secretary, to the extent that at
one point he even contemplated leaving Jane and 'starting again'.
Alison was in her 20s when she succeeded Peta Ewing as
Alan's constituency secretary in October 1988. Alan recorded the fact in his
diary: 'Peta is leaving to get married. Tedious. Her name is Alison Young. She
was not Peta's preferred candidate, but at the interview she showed spirit. I
noted that her hair was wet, for some reason, although it was a fine day.'
Wet? 'Too much hairspray,' recalls Alison.
Working for Alan was only her second job. In those days MPs'
secretaries' offices were widely spread, and her desk was round the corner from
the Commons in the Cloisters, Dean's Yard.
There were ten desks in an open-plan office. Alison sat, as
she recalls, between two Labour MPs' secretaries. 'I don't think you'd have
that now: everything is segregated. Everything then was quite relaxed and
old-fashioned.'
When Alison first worked for Alan he had an office in the
Department of Trade in Victoria Street, where she often had to go. When he
changed jobs in July 1989 to Defence, her trek was longer, but Alan's driver
would sometimes act as her chauffeur.
Alan, like other Ministers, also had a second office in the
Commons. It was never a '9 to 5' job, more 10 until 6 or 7pm.
Loyal wife: Alan with Jane at their castle in Kent
Loyal wife: Alan with Jane at their castle in Kent
By January 1989 she was regularly accompanying Alan on his
constituency visits, using the train journey to Plymouth to catch up on correspondence.
Alan thought her 'more efficient than Peta, and more fun to be with'. He also
noted the colour of her eyes: blue-grey.
When did the relationship change? Alison thinks it must have
been the Trade and Industry departmental Christmas party in 1988.
For Alan's part, this is confirmed in a chart-like graph
which he devised: the year and months across the top, each point of
significance to him numbered with a key alongside: December 1988 - DTI
Christmas party; February 1989 - 'says yes to Bratton trip'.
Through the next two years he identifies significant moments
by place names such as Lewtrenchard and Albany (his London flat), and events
such as the December 1989 MoD Christmas party. And in October, 1990: 'too much
of everything'.
At Christmas 1989, in a diary entry written in Albany, he
tells of completing the 'great Defence Review' with Alison's help. Their reward
was: 'A glass of champagne in the Pugin Room, came back here ... she was
resistant ... We talked a bit ... she cried, which was dear of her. . . today
is the anniversary of the Christmas party. It's always a low point. I don't
know what's going to happen.'
Alison says it was not a physical relationship, just a very
intense friendship. Searching for a word, she uses 'companion' as an
appropriate description.
At the best moments she called him Dearest M. C. (the
initials derived from Mr Clark) in her letters. He called her Aly.
In June 1991, Alan wrote on the back of a sheet of Sotheby's
notepaper: 'I bear you no ill-will my darling. Nothing but love and gratitude
for everything you gave me - even the pain.'
On more than one occasion Alan wrote in his diary that they
would talk for hours on the telephone, often into the small hours, she from her
flat, he from Albany.
For more than a year Alan led a double life. 'It's
preposterous,' he wrote in February, 1991. 'I'm actually ill, have been for
months, lovesick, it's called. A long and nasty course of chemotherapy - but
with periodic bouts of addiction therapy when I delude myself that I may be
cured without "damage".'
In the midst of his infatuation for Alison he recorded a
visit to St Leonard's (Hythe's parish church, near to Saltwood): 'I knelt and
reflected on "it" all. I almost asked Norman [Canon Norman Woods] to
hear my confession, but didn't/ couldn't, though afterwards Jane said he would
have. I was rather shocked to find how I prayed so selfishly. It was quite an
effort to focus on the real purpose and to release darling Jane of her pain and
sense of betrayal. She's going through exactly what I did in February - and I
know what it's like - total hell. Only feebly did I give thanks for this
wonderful life and all my blessings. Disgraceful.'
Jane knew Alison only as Alan's constituency secretary. In a
diary entry for March 4, 1991, he writes: 'Darling Jane is looking a wee bit
strained. She knows something is up, and is quiet a lot of the time. But she
doesn't question me at all - just makes the occasional scathing reference. I do
want to make her happy --she's such a good person.' In the same entry he adds
that he must get rid of Alison. When Jane eventually learnt of his feelings for
Alison it was a body blow.
She noticed Alison was deliberately dressing like her, using
the same hairstyle, something Alison firmly denies. Where Jane and Alison were
in agreement was over Alan's state of mind. Jane recalls saying to him: 'You
are infatuated,' and in one row suggested he look up the word in the
dictionary. Alison says she tried to use his infatuation to get what she
wanted, 'which was for him to settle down and do the job'.
She thought Alan was in mid-life crisis, had been, she said,
since he was 30 - he was actually 60 when she went to work for him.
'There were times when I probably had to be nasty just to
try and get back on an even keel, a professional relationship. 'Afterwards you
think when you've been purposely nasty to someone to force an action you want
then that wasn't very nice. I would feel guilty that I'd been particularly
unkind or cruel.'
Alan swimming in the moat of his castle
Alan swimming in the moat of his castle
Alison remembers how fed up she was. Here she was in her
early 20s with a career to think about. Looking back nearly 20 years later she
recalls: 'I appreciated I worked for somebody interesting, and that he was a
Minister. In terms of career progression, you either worked for an MP or you
worked for a Minister. So I already had one of the best jobs. I really liked
the job, and all I wanted was to do it well and learn more about politics. I
worked for someone interesting, who gave me freedom to do lots of work on my
own.'
Alan, though, wanted more, as Alison relates: 'A by-product
of all this was a certain amount of being chased around the filing cabinets.
'I suppose being quite naive, or stupid, or unhappy, pick a
variety of reasons why, at times I sort of relented because it was easier than
just carrying on fighting, which didn't seem to make any difference and which
seemed to encourage him more. I couldn't win either way.
I didn't particularly want to give up the job because I
enjoyed it. I didn't see why I should be hounded out of a job for that sort of
reason. But there could never be a balance with Alan.
'I would say, "Stop all that! and let's work." But
then in a way that would be a bit dull, because it wouldn't be quite as much
fun. It was interesting to accompany him to places or some event. But it was
trying to find a balance between these two extremes. But there couldn't be
one.'
Alan thought Alison had political potential. She recalls
that 'one of the problems working for someone with a personality like Alan's,
if they say things often enough you tend to believe them'.
When he said she should stand as a candidate she responded
that she was far too young and had not done enough preparation. Alan, however,
thought that an upside.
She was already working for the Conservative Party where she
lived and had attended a women's conference where she met Baroness Seccombe, a
party vice-chairman, who told Alan that 'she has great potential ... I am sure
that she will be a great asset to the party'.
At the 1991 Conservative Party conference, with Jane
accompanying him as usual, Alan records running Alison through the ladies'
cocktail party, to provide her with 'some good "contacts" '.
A significant handwritten exchange between them appeared on
the back of a daily ministerial engagement sheet dated July 9, 1991. It opened
with Alan asking Alison: 'Will you marry me? (please)'
'Why?' asked Alison. 'Aly PLEASE don't be cross. I can't
bear it,' he replied.
To which Alison has written: 'Tough s***.'
She wanted a relationship with someone who would never be
unfaithful. With Alan she knew that was impossible. She also knew he would
never leave Jane.
Alison was setting off for a long holiday to South America,
which caused Alan to write a lengthy diary entry, dated July 23, 1991: 'Last
night I was so dejected. When I actually face up to the fact that it is over I
feel quite ill and weak and yesterday, quite blithely, she was talking about
arrangements for Sarah to do the mail; wouldn't even tell me when she was
coming back (serve me right for asking - what does it matter anyway?)
'Later on, she rang. Instantly I felt incredible. Just her
voice saying hello, sweet and friendly. I said as much. But we never broke the
ice. It's crazy, isn't it?
'Every night this month we just go back to our separate
empty flats, then talk for up to one-and-a-half hours on the telephone. Why
aren't we talking side by side in bed? I've held on for so long because, as the
stars foretold, I'm emotionally enslaved, but I must summon some strength now.
I'm consumed, emaciated by jealousy. How in hell do I exorcise it?
'Perhaps someone will smile at me? I'll just steer the
Porsche on to the yellow roads. It'd be fun to drive really fast and
recklessly, and on my own. Yet I know that if I do meet someone it won't do any
good. I'll pine always for my Aly and her sweet waist and hips and quizzical
expression and changing moods.'
The ongoing professional problem for Alison, a major cause
of their fighting, was the way Alan neglected his Sutton constituency.
In September 1991 she wrote: 'As from today it will only be
necessary for you and I to meet twice a week for an hour. I suggest Tuesdays
and Thursdays. Any other business can be dealt with over the phone and Pat [the
driver] can bring your signing. Please do not contact me unless it is to do
with the constituency.' She followed this up the same day with an itemised
list:
'1. We have no links whatsoever - except that I am currently
in your employment.
'2. I would gladly return "the stone" [a gift] to
you - particularly as it is another symbol of all the lies and hypocrisy you
stand for. You said it was worth a lot of money (and all that bull**** about it
being meant for me) - but it is valueless. I resented having to pay good money
to have it set and buy a chain (just to shut you up) and so I am only keeping
it because of the value of the setting. Even an amateur gemmologist could tell
it was of poor quality - like its donor.
'3. I won't ever want you. You must understand that. There
is nothing and never was anything of meaning. I don't want to see you because
basically I am sick of those pathetic scenes - schoolboy gloating, crude
manhandling, the simpering and begging which is all an act.
'We could never be "mates", as you say, because
the two things that you value most - your ego and your money - mean nothing to
me.
'My future lies with someone else who has a surfeit, unlike
your poverty, of principles. I am sad that you wore away some of my own, and
lowered me in some respects to your level, but I, at least, am young enough to
change my ways, and do not suffer from the debilitating insecurity which you
have.
'4. Please return the stone I gave you or throw it away.
'DO NOT REPLY.'
Alan ignored this admonition. Alison tore up his next
letter, clipped a note saying 'unread' to the pieces and sent them back.
At another point that autumn Alison wrote, in a letter that
passed backwards and forwards between them, that she hoped Alan and Jane would
make things up. 'It was never my intention that this whole thing should get so
out of hand ... know she thinks it is all my fault, but she shouldn't have put
up with being treated so s******y for so long - and it was inevitable that
after years of your infidelities it would all come to a head at some point.
[Alan added a comment on the letter: 'Yes. Because at last I fell in love.']
'I wanted you to make a sacrifice for me,' continued Alison,
'but you didn't - and if you want her to stay you will have to sacrifice all
the other women, too, including me. Please let's be sensible and do the
dictation properly. I know you want me to leave, but it isn't fair. [Alan
added: 'Please don't.' Alison replied: 'What is the point if you are being so
difficult?'] We could be professional about everything on your return in
October. ['Never,' wrote Alan. 'We were in the beginning,' retorted Alison.]
'You always promised me (for what it was worth) that you
would keep business and personal separate. If you only ever keep one promise to
me let it be that one now.
[Alan: 'I'm terribly, truly, sorry that I broke the
important one. Please forgive me.']. Always, Alison.'
Two months later, with Alan behaving very much as before,
she wrote: 'I said I would tell you how things would have been on my return . .
. I won't write it, and you will probably never know if you keep acting as you
do - always talking and presuming -never listening and learning ...
'But remember you changed things. You disturbed the fine
balance which was beginning to go in your favour --and now we lurch from side
to side. You betrayed me once (that I know of) and there is no reason why you
wouldn't do it again. You will always have my respect, admiration and tender
feelings of affection - or do I mean love? A xxx.'
If there was a truce, it did not last for long. One day Alan
took Alison's diary from her handbag, leading her to fume on December 10, 1991:
'How dare you read my diary? Particularly when you do not let me look at yours
without supervision.
'I can't believe you can be so obnoxious. You say your diary
needs explanation, well, so does mine. Now you are all cross, hurt, and being
petty... and precisely because it is one rule for you (ie invade someone else's
privacy, read their personal notes - but they can't do it to you because it is
full of secrets of bonks with other women etc) and another for someone else ...
If you are upset by what you read, you deserve to be.'
In his diary during spring 1992, by which time Alan had
decided to resign his seat, his confusion of emotions is clear. In February he
wrote about the prospect of 'the pang of a final parting' from Alison. Ten days
later, Jane accompanied him on a ministerial trip to South America, leading him
to reflect: 'She is really so good and sweet. That's what makes the situation
so impossible. I mean what do I want? Certainly not to leave her and cause her
pain. And yet as she herself admits, Alison's appearance has revived our sexual
tension by all the jealous crosscurrents it arouses.'
Just before the General Election in April 1992, he wrote:
'The wonderful, excruciating, highly dangerous Alison "affair" has
burned itself out and, to my utter nostalgic depression we are now only, and I
fear never again can be more than "good friends".'
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Two months later Alison wrote to Alan: 'I do hate it when we
part at railway stations. I hate it when we are apart too much, but we both
have things we have to do and I have to explore the world a bit more while I
have the chance. You are so sweet to me in many ways, but we can be so cruel to
each other as well. I know I'll think about you when I'm away - and because the
imagination can be so fertile and unpredictable, sometimes I'll be cross +
jealous, and other times serene and content.
'Either we will remain attached, or we will grow apart, but
either way we will always be special to each other. I know I've been rotten and
cruel to you sometimes and that it is very difficult for you at the moment (
particularly this week) - but what are we to do? Look forward to a good chat
soon. Take care. Love Aly xx.'
Occasional cards reached him via Brooks's, some from
overseas. On learning he was publishing his diaries, Alison was worried: 'I
hope you haven't forgotten that you said I could look at the parts of the book
where I am mentioned and decide if I agreed. You even said you would make it a
legal agreement. So I trust you will keep to it.' (When she later saw the
published diaries, she thought the references to her were harmless.)
Alan tried to revive the relationship, but she was firm:
'There has never been any point trying to explain things to you as you always
make up your own story and interpretation anyway.
'All I can say is that we have been over all the arguments
hundreds of times - and nothing has changed, and it never will. And it is for
the best that way. You know that, too. I'm about to begin a new life, in many
different ways, and you should, too. Beginning with taking care of those in
your charge.'
But she found this disengagement difficult, as a later
postcard demonstrates: 'You nearly made me cry this morning - you can be so
disturbing. I just don't know what to do, which is why I keep running away
abroad.'
In August 1992, Alan and Jane were at Eriboll, their estate
in the Scottish Highlands. 'I hardly think of Alison any longer,' he wrote. His
diaries testify that was untrue, but the infatuation was over.
Later that year, a trip to Zermatt, the Swiss village where
the Clarks had a house, proved to be the beginning of the renewal of his
marriage to Jane. 'We started again out here,' he recalled a year before he
died. 'Absolutely delicious, never been sexually happier with Jane.'
Jane says she was true to her marriage: she never slept with
another man. Inevitably, in the course of researching and writing Alan's
biography, our conversations turned to the subject of his womanising. How did
she feel?
'I absolutely hated it. All these journalists who say, well,
she only stayed for the castle. Come on. How long was I married to him?
'There were moments with Al when I hated him, I really,
really hated him. I just felt - I always looked at things much, much longer,
not the immediate thing. And I knew that in spite of everything he loved me,
loved the boys. You can't really wreck their lives just for your convenience.
'He wasn't actually making everyone's life a misery except
mine. I just had to look at it like that. I did actually feel that all these
ladies - not one of them could have coped with him. If I had moved out someone
else would have moved in, but not one of them would have understood. They only
saw him, his glamour.
'I was desperately unhappy at certain periods. I did wonder
was it worth it. You get particularly bad bits. We had a terrible row. I went
into my bathroom, shut the door and said, "I'm going to pack".
'He had a complete breakdown outside the door. I was lying
there laughing. Little did he know. I threw out the odd remark. I was rather
enjoying this.
'He was amazingly selfish. I remember going for a walk. We
always used to lean on Lord Clark's Gate with a view of the sea. I thought,
"Why don't you come closer? ... You just don't get it, do you? Why should
I move closer to you? Let's have a cuddle or whatever. It's your job to woo
me."
'He never got that. He never seemed to understand. I don't
know if he did understand how much he hurt me. I think he probably did before
the end. He used to say "I have ruined your life". But I don't know;
I don't know.'
Clark wooed his first true love, an 18-year-old ballet
dancer called Pamela Hart, with outrageous flattery - and a dinner of vol au
vent and chips. But when she fell pregnant, he couldn't cope with having a child...
One Sunday afternoon in June 1951, Pamela Hart, an
18-year-old dancer with the London Festival Ballet, was cycling beside the
Thames with Judith, a school friend, when they spotted a suave, good-looking
young man and an elegant young woman coming out of the Bray Inn.
As Judith and Pamela began cycling back to Judith's home,
they didn't realise the young couple were following in a car. Then, as Pamela
recalls, she and Judith had to stop: 'I had a fly in my eye. Suddenly a car
drew up; it was the young man, who came across to me, introduced himself and
said, "You are the most beautiful woman in the world."'
This was Alan, and the woman turned out to be Celly -
Colette, Alan's sister.
Pamela remembers thinking the car must be his father's.
'Then Alan asked me for my name and address. I just gave it.' It was a
significant moment for Alan: in his engagement diary he circled the date and
wrote: 'See Pamela for the first time.'
Alan was 23, had graduated from Oxford two years earlier and
was now reading for the Bar. Pamela was his first true love.
Next morning there was a letter from him, but as Pamela was
dancing six nights a week, her first meeting with him had to be lunch. Alan
took her to Le Caprice. 'He told me what I would eat: vol au vent and chips!
And to drink he ordered me a White Lady.'
This cocktail of gin, Cointreau and lemon was completely new
to her.
'I had nothing to say; I was tongue-tied. I just couldn't
make any conversation.' After lunch, he took her for a drive to Upper Terrace
House, the Clark family's large house in Hampstead. 'I live there,' he said
nonchalantly. Finally, he drove Pamela back into town, just in time for her
evening performance.
Alan had no hesitation about asking her out again, nor she
about accepting. His diary entry for June 10 was: 'Pamela down to Oxford.'
Pamela as a magazine's covergirl
Pamela as a magazine's covergirl
The following Wednesday, they went to Battersea pleasure
gardens. Alan was smitten; he could not see enough of her, as his diary
records. By mid-July they were sleeping together, Alan circling her initial in
his diary each time.
Pamela was different from the young women he had met at
Oxford. She was down-to-earth and financially self-supporting. When she could
get time off, she would go to Switzerland with him.
On one occasion they drove across France to Zurich in his XK
Jaguar. 'Incredibly cold and great roaring winds,' he recorded. A photograph
shows them dancing together in a Zermatt bar.
On returning to England, Pamela would receive letters and
postcards from Alan, who stayed on, ostensibly to work at his writing. Typical
were photographs of the two of them that had been turned into postcards: 'God,
who's that divine little number dancing with that awful man? What a waste, she
only looks about 16, too. Love xxxxxx "awful man".'
She noticed a number of other character traits. He declared
his love; he was always honest (even telling her when he had been seeing other
women). He was the boss, which suited her: 'I like my man to be in charge. It's
tribal, it's natural.'
Alan would sometimes call Pamela 'Bluebie', a nickname that
started when an American remarked on her blue eyes.
Little more than a year after their first meeting, Alan's
parents bought Saltwood Castle, in Kent, for £28,000. Pamela was often a
visitor, billeted in a turret room, she recalls. Staying there made her
nervous, giving her stomach cramps.
Once she had supper with the family. It was a buffet with a
whole salmon. Alan's father Kenneth motioned her forward to help herself. 'I
don't think I'd seen a whole salmon before,' she says. She hesitated, but
remembers neither Kenneth nor Alan stepped forward to guide her, a point of
manners that still rankles.
'I simply picked up the servers and cut across the middle of
the salmon, through the bone and all.' If the Clarks as a family looked on
askance, all she remembers is Kenneth saying: 'That's a bold stroke, my dear.'
The family now took their turn, each delicately easing away pieces of salmon in
the approved manner.
The London Festival Ballet toured a lot, but Alan had a
habit of turning up unannounced at the stage door. Otherwise they kept in touch
by post. Pamela reckons Alan wrote at least 100 letters to her, but in a
clear-out at her parents' home her mother burnt them. However, Pamela's letters
to Alan have survived.
While the country was celebrating the Coronation in June
1953, Alan sat his Bar exams - and failed. He retook them the following year,
but failed again. Pamela told him: 'You do nothing but chase girls." He
decided on one more attempt.
The postcard showing Alan and Pamela, circled, dancing in
Zermatt in the Fifties
The postcard showing Alan and Pamela, circled, dancing in
Zermatt in the Fifties
Pamela wrote to Alan from Harrogate in December 1954, saying
he sounded 'rather depressed - how do you feel now that your exam is over?
Relieved I suppose. One week today and I will be with you again. I am looking
forward to it so much because except for that one day it has been ten weeks
which is longer than any other time we have been apart ever.'
Awaiting the results meant five weeks' nail-biting. Then
Pamela got a postcard: 'I PASSED BAR FINALS!! M & D very pleased.' And
surprised: Pam says he had not told them he was retaking the exams.
Alan did not appear to see contraception as his
responsibility. For women in the early Fifties it was still primitive and
unreliable. Half a century later, it seems remarkable that it was Alan's mother
who organised these matters for Pamela.
In 1953, a little more than two years after they first met,
Pamela was in Cardiff with the Festival Ballet when she thought she might be
pregnant. Alan arranged for pregnancy test at a laboratory in Great Portland
Street - he gave his name as Dr A.K. Clark.
Pamela says he drove to Cardiff from London with the test
result. 'We're going to have a baby,' he said. Pamela was pleased, and then he
added: 'But we don't have to.'
In a letter to her that Alan never sent, but which lay for
years in a filing cabinet, he wrote: "Dearest Pam - need I say that I have
spent the whole day in a blue panic! On the other hand I kept thinking to
myself that it must be all right as I don't see how it can have happened.
'Every time I get worried I promise to myself not to do it
again, as you know, and you always make me. I don't know, I'm in a terrible dither.
'I got a little extra money from Autextra [a car parts
company Clark was involved in] the other day and I thought we might slip down
to Switzerland for a very short little tour, but of course all this makes it
impossible to think. If only it comes alright we must go abroad to celebrate.
But what we will do about love-making I just don't know.
'I can't bear these panics, they literally make me sick.
I've been thinking about it all day... It would be so awful for you and what
about your parents? I suppose we could keep it from them if you came to live in
London, but then what about the ballet? You would have to stop dancing after a
bit and you couldn't start again for months. And then what about it?'
Alan's next sentence is revealing: 'We'd have to keep it if
it was a baby boy.
'This is a fine way to go on after my saying that "it
must be all right", I know, but just the way I'm thinking.
'I know, Bluebie. I am a cad for not asking you to marry me.
Please forgive me for that.
'No one is nicer or sweeter or more lovable or means more to
me, and everyone knows that when I see your photos on all the presents you've
given me I want to cry. But I just think how solemn those marriage vows were
when I went to Michael's [Briggs] wedding and the parson who confirmed me told
me never to marry a girl immediately because she was going to have a baby and I
think it would be a mockery if we had a rush marriage after all this.
'I'm afraid all this is a meaningless ramble and reflects
very badly on me. Please forgive me for everything, Bluebie, and whatever way
this ends I will stand by you. All my love xxxxxx Alan.'
In the end, the Clarks organised everything. Alan's mother
signed the consent form and Pamela went to Harley Street to have the abortion.
Her parents never knew.
An undated letter to Alan from his mother has survived.
'Hope you enjoyed Le Mans and have good news of P. on your return.'
The pleasantries over, she became stern: 'In case you see P.
before we see you I assume you will only behave as a friend until you and I
have had a further talk - which won't be possible till Thursday when I hope
we'll all have an evening at home.'
Thirty years later Alan showed how his views had changed
over what he called 'convenient' abortions. In an 'extremely private' letter to
Hugo Young, then a Sunday Times columnist, he had no hesitation in describing
such abortions as 'sinful'.
Pamela's abortion had stayed on his conscience. Nearly 20
years later, he wrote in his diary about still dreading retribution being
visited on his sons: 'Filled with remorse and sadness for Pam and the aborted
child.'
When, during my research, Jane first heard of Pam's
experience it became clear why her husband held such strong pro-life beliefs.
After this upheaval, Pamela's and Alan's relationship became
less stable. At her 21st birthday party in October, 1953, Alan gave Pamela a
brooch from Asprey's. He drove her home and then said: 'I think we ought to
part.' Pam started crying and said: 'How could you possibly say you loved me
and say that?'
Looking back on those years, Pamela says that even after
saying they should split up, Alan would 'turn up like a bad penny, as if he'd
never been away' and they soon restarted their relationship.
Just before Christmas 1955 he wrote about Pamela in his
diary: 'I wish I could love her and marry her and be "settled", with
at least half of me I wish that.'
In April 1956, while hoping to make a killing on the stock
market, he wrote: 'And then perhaps I could marry dear Pam.'
Alan moved to Rye, East Sussex, in the summer of 1956. One
Sunday evening he and Pamela went to a local cinema. A gaggle of schoolgirls
sat behind. Thinking back, Pamela wonders if Jane Beuttler, Alan's future wife,
who then lived in Rye, was among them.
Why Alan finally decided to end the relationship is not
clear. Certainly he did not have the nerve to tell Pamela to her face - he
wrote to her instead.
She replied by registered post: 'My dear Alan - your letter
didn't come as a great surprise to me and yet it still managed to hurt me a
great deal, mainly because it was cold and to the point. Also because you must
have felt that way on Monday morning and it would have been less cowardly to
tell me straight away - you know I have got past the stage of crying and making
scenes now.'
Unfinished business remained between them. In autumn 1956,
the Bolshoi Ballet Company was visiting London, and Alan had got tickets to see
them before the final breakup with Pamela. She now addressed the situation. 'I
do so want to see the Russians as it is too wonderful an opportunity to miss,'
she wrote.
'Please don't ask me not to come because I need not even see
you if you wish, I can meet Celly in the foyer before the performance if she
has the tickets . . . All my love always, Pamela.'
Alan was embarrassed, as his diary entry on October 3 shows:
he refers to 'a sad encounter with dear Pam, real Pam. It is firmly in my mind
and although trivial in detail had the stamp of finality and is too painful to
record'.
Later, when Alan was engaged to Jane, he wrote to tell
Pamela. She remembers his letter, this 'bolt from the blue'. She wrote back: '
Congratulations, hope you will be very happy.'
But that wasn't the end of the story. One morning Pamela was
driving through London, when one of her passengers spotted Alan. She gave chase
and caught up with him in Piccadilly.
'He looked up at me, registered "mock horror", put
his hand over his face, and said would I like to go to the Caprice "for
old times' sake?" He was getting married the following Thursday.'
She was 'dying of curiosity' to learn about Jane and asked
him over dinner: 'What's she got that I haven't?'
Alan replied: 'I can mould her. I know she is pliable. You
are too strong.' Pam burst into tears, 'and that was the end of it'.
The 'fabulous girl' he married at 16
When Alan first met his wife Jane, he was 28 and she was
just 14.
But previously unpublished extracts from his diaries reveal
that, despite their age difference, he rapidly became obsessed with Jane and
was determined to sleep with her - to the fury of her parents ...
Jane's first glimpse of her future husband was when she and
her family were picnicking at Camber Sands, near Rye in East Sussex: 'I
remember seeing this person walking along in the distance with this huge dog
behind him, a great Dane,' she says. 'I remember him mincing along, I remember
thinking I don't think I've ever seen anyone with such a conceitedly pompous
walk. That was the very first time.
'There was this click - I used to say later that I had magic
powers - it sounds absolutely dotty if you mention it, but there was a voice
inside me saying, "That's the man you're going to marry," and it was
most extraordinary because at 14, I was not into the opposite sex.'
It is not clear whether Alan noticed Jane that day. It was
almost certainly mid-August 1956, and by September 6, when Alan resumed his
diary after a two-month break, Jane was at the centre of his thoughts. For the
next eight weeks his entries are devoted to her.
Jane was the daughter of Bertie and Pam Beuttler. He worked
in the War Office and the family lived in Rye, the town Alan had recently moved
to after buying his first house.
Even though Alan knew Jane was only 14 - half his age - the
diary reveals how rapidly she became his sexual obsession. In the entry for
September 6 he is quick to make up for lost time: 'This is very exciting. She
is a perfect victim, but whether or not it will be possible to succeed I can't
tell at present.' He had been seeing Jane, he writes, for two-and-a-half weeks.
'Our first contact when I slid my fingers between hers when
we held hands walking back across Rye Green after dinner the day we took our
first walk by the lakes.'
It was still the school holidays and although Alan had
promised himself he would work on his planned novel, set in the stock market,
his obsession with Jane excluded everything else.
'For about a week we would walk in the afternoon ... and I
would kiss her hand and stroke her neck and calves,' he wrote. 'Finally there
came the high point so far, as one lay by the shore of the little promontory,
out of the wind, and I studied her high thighs through her thin, yellow-striped
summer frock, and she, half-mesmerised, pretended to retaliate by pricking my
face with a thistle.
'She comes straight to Watchbell Street [his home in Rye] in
the evenings. Coming through the back door, but as she only stops for about
five minutes it has not been possible to make much progress.
'I have mismanaged it a bit in the last two days, going
neurotic after she told me that two people had tried to kiss her before.'
Jane thought him 'absolutely super'. She says: 'My natural
thing was flirting. It didn't mean anything, just the way I am. It got me into
trouble.'
Alan was, as he wrote, 'a bit afraid of her mother clamping
down, or worse, catching us one evening on the sofa at my house. Already there
is gossip.'
By late September, the relationship was becoming serious.
Jane's younger brother Nick started to follow them around. Alan was sure this
was at the behest of Jane's parents, who must have been worried. 'Worried?'
retorts Jane at the suggestion. 'They were absolutely furious.' As for Alan's
age, she says, 'He behaved more like he was 12, he was permanently juvenile'.
Alan's frustration leaps off the pages of the diary. When he
tried to assert himself she continued to be resistant. He recorded the
dialogue:
'I'm sick of you,' she said. 'You don't want to see me
again, then.'
'Not much, no ... ' Towards the end of September, a
development in her father's Army career changed everything, according to Alan's
diary. ' TERRIBLE NEWS of their impending departure to Malta. Oh God.'
That Sunday Alan was invited round to their house 'for
drinks with her Ma'. Bertie was not at home. 'Went quite well,' he wrote.
An air of melancholy coloured Alan's brief account of
Saturday, October 6. 'A last walk and hug. The tide was coming in fast and we
were out of the wind with the sun on us. Then to Saltwood [his parents' castle
in Kent] to lunch and back in time to take her to the station.' As ever, Alan
fantasises: 'She would almost have run away with me.'
Alan got a letter from Jane's mother on Christmas Eve,
written from a beach in Malta, where 'the young are bathing'. Alan wrote in his
diary: 'Oh dear... to think of her out there maturing in that hot climate
tempting other young men.'
By Easter, the Beuttlers were back. Alan went round. It was,
as he put it, 'an unfortunate visit'. Jane was 'looking so attractive it's
agony'.
'Came back pretty depressed. I know I must end this, but she
is so attractive this annoys me.' He added a PS: 'No more, ever. . . stay
blander, more controlled, at all times.'
By June, the relationship was in top gear again: 'Relations
with Bertie and Pam pretty OK now. Jane is just fabulous to look at these days
with her lovely plumpish little legs and ultra-prim breasts.'
He notes 'a delicious evening walk out over the sands with
Jane and the dogs. We crossed the river at its mouth, she was wearing a new
blue poplin dress and pulled it high up over her thighs, holding it there
afterwards as her legs were wet, and got her feet and ankles covered with black
slippery mud --very provoking!'
Before leaving for a trip abroad on July 27, he wrote: 'My
lust for her has waned, though this may give rise to a position of strength.
Also she seems to make me "nervous".' On reading this, Jane recalled
that he used to say he was frightened of her.
On his return - although he wrote: 'Tired of Jane and her
**** teasing, so there!' - she was increasingly to dominate his life.
They had known each other for more than a year now, but she
was still only 15. No matter how much Alan wanted to take her to bed, his diary
entries are clear that consummation in defiance of the law was something that
frightened him. 'I know what a mistake it would be,' he writes at one point.
As autumn approached he was pleased to report: 'Great progress
with Jane, on the verge one might say, as about a fortnight ago she suddenly
took to deep kissing.'
On October 10, he wrote that he now had, he was sure, 'an
absolute mastery over her' and felt himself becoming overpowered again by
'massive lust for her'. Looking for ways round 'the problem' he sought advice
about 'safe periods'
But in December he noted: 'I am sitting in the study waiting
for her to come round. It's 4.15 and she said she'd come at 3. I don't know
what can have happened. I always suspect the worst.'
The 'worst' was a meeting with Bertie and Pam. From Alan's
account it is clear they had had enough. After a heart-to-heart talk with Jane
they wanted to know what he thought he was up to. Bertie, wrote Alan, was
'shaking with rage'.
But Pam, to Alan's surprise, took his side. 'Anyway I coped
as best I could with Bertram who threatened police, publicity, ringing up Papa,
etc - and this sparked off by Pam telling him that I wanted to marry Jane. I
rang him when I got back to Saltwood and apologised, but the whole affair left
me very shaky.'
When he thought Jane might be pregnant, Alan 'absolutely
panicked, dry mouth, not joining in the conversation, etc. Driving over this
afternoon I thought I might be wrecking everything . . . hopes of marriage,
settled life, the chalet, writing, everything.'
But it was a false alarm: 'Thank God, and I mean thank GOD.'
Clark published the first volume of his political and
personal diaries in 1993, which caused a minor embarrassment at the time with
their descriptions of senior Conservative politicians such as Michael
Heseltine, Douglas Hurd, and Kenneth Clarke. He quoted Michael Jopling—referring
to Heseltine, deputy PM at the time—as saying "The trouble with Michael is
that he had to buy all his furniture" and judged it "Snobby, but
cutting". His account of Thatcher's downfall in 1990 has been described as
the most vivid in existence.Two subsequent volumes of his diaries cover the
earlier and later parts of Clark's parliamentary career. The diaries reveal
recurring worries about Japanese militarism but his real views are often not
clear because he enjoyed making "tongue in cheek" remarks to the
discomfiture of those he believed to be fools, as in his sympathy for a British
version of National Socialism.
“Alan Clark Diaries: Into Power, Page 280, Phoenix Paperback
2000 Edition, 8 December 1981: Frank [Frank Johnson, sketch writer for The
Times] pretended he wanted to talk about the Tory Party, but he really prefers
to talk about the Nazis, concerning whom he is curious, but not, of course,
sympathetic. Yes, I told him, I was a Nazi, I really believed it to be the
ideal system, and that it was a disaster for the Anglo-Saxon races and for the
world that it was extinguished. He both gulped and grinned 'But surely, er, you
mean … (behaving like an unhappy interviewer in Not the Nine O'Clock News
after, e.g., Pamela Stephenson had said something frightfully shocking) ideally
in terms of administrative and economic policy … you cannot really, er …' Oh
yes, I told him, I was completely committed to the whole philosophy. The blood
and violence was an essential ingredient of its strength, the heroic tradition
of cruelty every bit as powerful and a thousand times more ancient than the
Judaeo-Christian ethic.”
“Alan Clark held strong views on British unionism, racial
difference, social class, and was in support of animal rights, nationalist
protectionism and Euroscepticism[citation needed]. He referred to Enoch Powell
as "The Prophet". Clark once declared: "It is natural to be
proud of your race and your country", and in a departmental meeting,
allegedly referred to Africa as "Bongo Bongo Land".[32] When called
to account, however, by then Prime Minister John Major, Clark denied the
comment had any racist overtones, claiming it had simply been a reference to
the President of Gabon, Omar Bongo.[33]
Clark argued that the media and the government failed to
pick out the racism towards white people and ignored any racist attacks on
white people. He also however described the National Front chairman, John Tyndall,
as "a bit of a blockhead"[34] and disavowed his ideas.
When Clark was Minister for Trade, responsible for
overseeing arms sales to foreign governments, he was interviewed by journalist
John Pilger who asked him:[35]
JP "Did it bother you personally that this British
equipment was causing such mayhem and human suffering (by supplying arms for
Indonesia's war in East Timor)?"
AC "No, not in the slightest, it never entered my head.
You tell me that this was happening, I didn't hear about it or know about
it."
JP "Well, even if I hadn't told you it was happening,
the fact that we supply highly effective equipment to a regime like that is not
a consideration, as far as you're concerned. It's not a personal
consideration."
JP "I ask the question because I read you are a
vegetarian and you are quite seriously concerned about the way animals are
killed."
AC "Yeah"
JP "Doesn’t that concern extend to the way humans,
albeit foreigners, are killed?"
AC "Curiously not. No."
While involved in the Matrix Churchill trial he was cited in
a divorce case in South Africa, in which it was revealed he had had affairs
with Valerie Harkess, the wife of a South African barrister (and part-time
junior judge), and her daughters Josephine and Alison.[36] After sensationalist
tabloid headlines, Clark's wife Jane remarked upon what Clark had called
"the coven" with the line: "Well, what do you expect when you
sleep with below stairs types?", and referred to her husband as an
"S, H, one, T".
“Ion Trewin tells an enthralling story of the life that
Clark himself chose not to discuss: an unhappy childhood with neglectful
parents (his art historian father Kenneth Clark, best known for his
'Civilisation' TV series). Fire destroyed his first school; he endured wartime
Eton, at Oxford he read history under Hugh Trevor-Roper and drove large cars
(he was known as 'Klaxon' Clark). His parents insisted he read law; passing his
exams at the 3rd attempt, he never practised. His first novel - accepted on the
13th submission - was pulped because of libel, but went on to gain praise. The
Donkeys, his first work of history, brought down the wrath of military
historians. Clark changed course and into politics in his forties. Readers may
think they know Clark's political life from his diaries, but Clark himself
neglected to tell all, about Mrs T's downfall, the Matrix Churchill arms to
Iraq scandal and much more.
He adored women - Trewin has tracked down his first great
love, a ballet dancer, and his last infatuation - and courted a schoolgirl he
first met when she was 16 and he 30. This was Jane, to whom he remained married
- if not faithfully - until his death from a brain tumour in 1999. The extent
of his extra-marital escapades is now revealed. Here for the first time the
unknown Alan Clark stands revealed.”
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